Tuesday, October 16, 2012


Tonight is my third night sleeping here in the basement. For the past few days our basement became my new haven. I don't know what came up to my mind and sleep on a couch here at the basement for three nights in a row. Our basement is very spacious. I kind of enjoyed my stay here at the basement. Its very relaxing here. 

I really hope someday I'll be able to get my own place and start to live my life on my own. A one bedroom apartment as spacious as our basement right now would be a great start. Its not just because of the money why I'm not yet moving out but one day, hopefully soon, I will.

I'm already approaching my mid-20s and its about time that I start to think and plan of my own life. I have a full-time job. I will learn and master how to drive soon, I hope. I'm not sure though if I want to stay here or move into a different state.

Our basement gave me insights of what I want for myself. Lately I've been thinking a lot about other people and I almost forgot to think about myself. Good night.

Thursday, October 11, 2012


Wear and tear. Deterioration. Obsolescence. Decrease in value. These are some of the things that comes to my mind when I think of depreciation. I learned from my Accounting class way back in high school and college that most tangible assets depreciates. But recently I've realized that even relationships, like friendship, can depreciate too. People walk in and out of our life because our value or worth decreases in time. Some will just be there for a short period of time while others will stay there for a while.

Family. As we grow old and learn how to do things on our own we slowly grow apart from our families. Most people would move out of their house once they feel that they can start to live independently. Others stay with their families but starts to explore what more the world can offer. But there are also others who sticks with their family because they still find their families valuable to their lives. For some its because of love and/or support they get from their family while for others its because their family depends on them.

I live with my sister and my brother-in-law. I support my mom's medical needs financially even if she's miles away from me right now. I love my family. They're the most precious people I have in my life right now. They're always there for me. But at my age right now I'm starting to think that I am depending to them too much as they depend on me too. There's nothing wrong with that except that I am too close to my family that it became difficult for me to gain friends and socialize.

Friends. Facebook and Twitter people are my only social life right now. I hardly go out with friends. Most of my friends are far away from me and I only have a few good friends. I like meeting new people but my life is too boring for most people because I do not have that much to share. I do not have that much experience socializing with people. They frequently say that I am too nice and prompt. I hardly can relate with the interest of people. I am a wallflower.

A wallflower treasures friendship like a diamond. I used to believe that long-distance relationship problems only occurs on romantic relationships but then I started to realize that it can also make friendship fade. You are both busy with your own lives. You may keep in touch a lot at first but when one finds a new friend, eventually they will start to get tired keeping in touch until one disappears. Just like a kid with a favorite toy, when he gets a new toy he will get tired of his old toy, regardless of how much he liked the toy at first.

So I guess all relationship depreciates, whether it is with your family or with a friend. As much as you want to keep them, one's worth for a person is as much time a person can spare for you - regardless if one is busy or not. A worthy person will find time for you regardless if one is busy or not.

Monday, October 8, 2012


I was watching X Factor UK videos on Youtube and then I can't help notice the head judge, Damn he's so hot! I just found myself a new celebrity crush. Whew!

I love Maroon 5 and The Voice because of him. He's so hot and sexy that every time I hear him on the radio it turns me on.

OMG! For me Thor is the hottest among The Avengers. I'll be on my knees for him.

Magic Mike is in the house! His moves are so hot and sexy you'll just be turned on even if he does not take off his clothes.

McDreamy, my ultimate crush. I was captivated the very first time I saw him on Grey's Anatomy.

Sunday, October 7, 2012


I saw #50ThingsIWantToDoBeforeIDie trending on Twitter right now and I realized that 50 tweets for this is too much so I decided to just make a blog post for this one.
  1. Travel around the world
  2. Learn how to drive
  3. Learn how to swim
  4. Get an MBA
  5. Finish a marathon
  6. Settle down
  7. Be independent
  8. Get my own place
  9. Payoff all my debts
  10. Make my mom proud of me
  11. Fall in love
  12. watch an Adele concert live
  13. Be the boss
  14. Kiss under the rain
  15. Celebrate New Year's Eve at Times Square, NYC
  16. Meet my father and all my brothers and sisters in person
  17. Climb a mountain
  18. Bring my mom here in the US
  19. Watch a broadway show in NYC
  20. Drive my own car
  21. Go to Disneyland
  22. Zipline
  23. Go to a male strip club
  24. Get married
  25. Start my own business
  26. Learn how to play the piano
  27. Become a $$$ multi-millionaire
  28. Have less than 10% body fat
  29. Collect Apple gadgets
  30. Get a DSLR camera
  31. Go to a white party
  32. Learn how to speak other languages
  33. Raise a son and a daughter
  34. Go skinny dipping
  35. Bonfire at the beach with friends
  36. Learn new recipes
  37. Be seen on TV
  38. Kiss a girl
  39. Win first place on a contest
  40. Visit all 50 US states
  41. Attend a mass in Vatican
  42. Learn how to ride a motorcycle
  43. Sit under a cherry blossom tree
  44. Seduce a straight guy
  45. Workout to get six-pack abs
  46. Get a lasik surgery for my eyes
  47. Be a model
  48. Pay it forward
  49. Sky diving
  50. Ride a hot air balloon

Tuesday, October 2, 2012


I know we've only known each other for a few months, that we can never be more than friends, and that you're nearly a thousand miles away from me right now, but I keep thinking of you. I don't know what's so different about you that you affect my life this much. For the short period of time that we've known each other, you have touched my life in a way that nobody else does.

You are moving forward with your own life and here I am stuck in the moment where you left me hoping that one day you'll come back and pick me up from where you have left me or at least someone else will pick me up on where you've left me. The only problem is I've been looking at the wrong places. I realized that you're someone that is not that easy to replace.

As I look around for a new friend I got lost and realized that I am looking on the wrong way. It just started to struck me now after what happened to me earlier today. And I'm pretty sure you guys don't want to know about that. It felt like I picked a stone to hit my head hard to wake myself up and realize these things.

Since you left, I kept on thinking a lot of 'what ifs' and 'buts'. What if I knew you before him? What if we've spent more time together when you were here? What if you liked me more than him? What if you haven't met him? I know these questions will just stay on my mind unanswered.

You found a new friend on your new home. I was able to get a chance to get to know your new friend through social networking sites and as well as with occasional chats and I have to say that he's really a nice guy. I am happy for you but deep inside I feel sad for myself.

I have to move forward.
I need to move forward.
I will move forward.
I am moving forward.